An idea of what's in my head

I would rather die of passion than of boredom.

Remember, the higher you go, the more alone you are. The lower you go, the more you are with people. It is like a pyramid. The lowest part of the pyramid has the biggest base: the base is the biggest. Then, as you go higher, the pyramid becomes smaller and smaller and smaller, and at the apex, it is just a point. You can visualize these minds in this way. The primal is the base of the pyramid; the social is very close to the base—a little smaller than the base; the individual is very close to the apex, to the peak—far away from the base; and the universal is just a point, the apex. And when you have jumped even beyond that, the pyramid disappears… and the fifth, the transcendental. It is not part of the pyramid at all.
With the social you can be with the mob, with the individual you cannot be with the mob. You can only be with a small group of people. You will always find whenever there are egoistic people that they will create small groups, their own societies, clubs, lodges. They will not move with the mass, they will have their own chosen few, select few; they will move with them. Authors will move with authors. Poets will move with poets. Painters will have their own clubs, their own restaurants where they will meet. They will have their own superior, small groups, and they will be very choosy about who is to be allowed.
With the fourth, you are alone—not even a club of the chosen people; you are alone. With the fifth you are not even alone, even you have disappeared. This is how it goes. Slowly slowly things go on disappearing. First the mass; then the small societies, groups, clubs; then you; and one day there is only emptiness in your hands. That emptiness is what Jesus calls the ‘kingdom of God,’ Buddha calls NIRVANA.